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Nobody deserves to be out in the rain

By Allison Edmon Quesada on March 12, 2012 13 Comments

I’ll never forget I was at my sonography internship at a large hospital in 2008. Because it was a trauma hospital, I was accustomed to seeing all kinds of patients, sicknesses, diseases, people…you name it, and we saw a lot of it. It was early one morning, very early. We got a call from the Emergency Room for a pelvic ultrasound. This is a common study, and not always an emergent one, as you aren’t dealing with a pregnancy. A woman, probably no older than 30 was wheeled in by an Emergency Room attendant and put in the exam room. She looked exhausted, her eyes and face were swollen with fatigue, pain, and tears. The attendant came out and closed the door behind him. I was going to enter the room to start the exam when the attendant stopped me. With a near smile on his face, almost as if he was going to tell me some kind of humorous secret, he said “. She is from the wrong side of the tracks. She got picked up for streetwalking….she’s really not the kind of girl you want to take home to mom.” He went on to tell me that she had already been diagnosed with a cervical abscess, as a side effect of an untreated STD. Without going into gory detail, all I will need to say is that a cervical abscess is an infection in a very sensitive and tender place. Needless to say, this poor woman was in a lot of pain. At first I listened attentively, thinking he was about to give me some kind of actual crucial information for my exam, but then realized…he was only interested in gossiping about her.

 

He continued to stress to me, literally almost elbowing me with humor, how dirty and unclean (metaphorically speaking) this girl was. Was there a joke I was missing? Did he think I would smile and chime in with a derogatory comment about her?  It’s important in the health field to have an accurate history of the patient’s lifestyle…but I kept thinking there was some affirmation of his judgment he was waiting for me to give, some agreement I would show that this woman deserved pain and sickness and filth for her transgressions. It really did catch me off guard; I played dumb to his ridiculous attempt at hospital humor, said ok, and went in to start my exam.  I couldn’t get his words out of my head. Why did he want me to know how dirty she was? It was more than just a transmission of words so that I would understand how to treat the patient….it was a judgment. We are absolutely all guilty of making judgments, but in most cases I think we make ourselves feel better by trying to convince our self that our judgments are harmless, or informative for safety reasons, or at the very least PRIVATE. That was not the case with this man. It was like he couldn’t stop himself from trying hard to convince me, and those around me that this girl was not qualified to deserve respect or help. Why did he want me to understand that she was so dirty and unclean? I went in and performed my exam. Of course, the poor girl was literally writhing in pain. Her tears were flowing freely though she never sobbed. She spent most of her concentration throughout my exam trying not to pass out.

 

I had to go over her pregnancy history, as it is pertinent to our exam.6 pregnancies. No children. 5 abortions, 1 miscarriage due to drug overdose. The man’s words echoed in my head again. “She’s dirty. She’s not the kind of girl you bring home to mom.” I began to see where he may have picked up those thoughts, yet, I noticed clearly that I did not feel the intolerance, the judgment, the hatred towards her that I’m sure the man felt inside of himself. It caught me off guard. Here I was looking in the eyes a woman who had essentially killed six of her own children, who sold her body to anyone who wanted it, who engaged in illegal and harmful activities with illicit people. This kind of person on paper disgusted me, yet as I looked at her, I felt protective of her. I felt sympathy for her. She was in pain, but I think the physical pain she was in was only a glimpse of the inside pain she had been feeling for most of her life. The attendant had tried so hard to DISgrace her….and it only made me want to EMBRACE her.

 

I can’t justify her actions or her wrongdoings. But that’s okay; Christ won’t justify any of my wrongdoings either. He will however, forgive me of them. To pursue being like him, would I not do the same towards her? We as Christians live with so much grace and mercy that I think we often forget that it is surrounding us in spades. Kind of like, you don’t see the forest for the trees.  We can’t expect people without the grace and mercy of God to value life or have the strength to live in dire circumstances. We expect others to have the same standard of living, strength for living, and outlook on living. They do not. Humanity, on its own, is wicked. That’s not to say this woman is wicked. Nor that she is innocent. She is responsible for her actions and choices. She will have to face God and have a “heart to heart” with him, the only one who truly knows and understands her, when the time comes.  But while Christians have been living under the umbrella of God’s grace and hope and love (don’t argue, you have, regardless of your circumstances), we have openly pointed a finger of judgment at those who are running around in circles out in the rain.

 

I can’t force her to come out of the rain. It has to be her decision. And she has to want to do it, because sadly there is a lot of pushing and shoving under here, and if you’re here for the wrong reasons, standing in the rain doesn’t seem like such a bad option. Standing on a box and yelling about how it’s better to be dry won’t do much good either. I think that the majority of people who reject God do it because they don’t understand what it is that he actually offers. So there they are, running in the rain, unhappy and wet and cold, surrounded by people who are cranky and wet and cold, and probably all the time thinking that they are “too dirty” to come under the umbrella, or they won’t be accepted under the umbrella, or that God will require more than they can give under the umbrella.  They don’t realize that it’s FREE to come under here, and anybody can come. And that being under the umbrella doesn’t mean you aren’t surrounded by storms, or that your feet may not occasionally get wet. It means that someone (God), has placed himself between you and the rain, and has his arms “umbrellad” around you.  That woman had done many things to hurt herself, probably to hurt others. But instead of being angry at her for being wet, I decided to see her as just a little girl lost in the rain. And that, my friends, is where Jesus came in. And he is willing to go out into the rain for each and every one of us, tuck us safely under his arm, and bring us under the umbrella. All those of already under here have to do is welcome our long lost wet brothers and sisters, by scooting over and making room for them.

 

Nobody deserves to be out in the rain.

 

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Wesley Bell

March 13, 2012 at 8:34am | Permalink

Very wonderful blog Allison!!! By sounds of this, you have a heart of Gold made by God for anybody, no matter their history or lifestyle. May God continue to bless you in all walks of your life.

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Mary Merrill

March 13, 2012 at 9:24am | Permalink

This is a wonderful story and we should all take these words to heart. Thank you Allison.

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Angie Carter

March 13, 2012 at 10:14am | Permalink

Allison, thank you for that story. It was so profound, beautiful in description & application. You have articulated the love, mercy & grace of God so artistically. I want to read more!

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Sherril Pace

March 13, 2012 at 10:27am | Permalink

Such a compelling story! Thank you for sharing your heart with all of us and the revelation of His Grace & Mercy and choosing to demonstrate God's Heart!!! May we all truly realize that no one DESERVES to be out in the rain! We may not agree on the path but we are called to look for every opportunity to embrace those that find themselves for whatever reason out in the rain without purpose or direction. When we are shopping for an umbrella we may look for the capacity, the color, the design to meet our purpose to purchase but when the storm is raging and it is wet, cold & sleeting you really dont care... you just want something to separate you from all that is taking place around you for the moment!! These are the divine appointments that you just described that we have the opporunity to embrace those that find themselves unprotected in the storm. Amazing Blog Ali!!! Thank you!

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Brenda Mullins

March 13, 2012 at 10:59am | Permalink

Thank you for sharing this touching, heartfelt story. As I read this, with tears streaming down my face, I wonder how many people we meet that just need someone to look "beyond the faults" and see the need. Great reminder of Gods unconditional love and grace. Allison, you have an amazing gift to write. Keep sharing.

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Peter Anson

March 13, 2012 at 11:49am | Permalink

Well done, I could not agree with you more. It makes me proud to know you and be associated with you. You need to write more you do a good job of getting your thoughts across. Keep up the great work.

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Pam

March 13, 2012 at 1:37pm | Permalink

Allison your passion for people shows in this story and I am proud of you. I can't get the man in the hospital out of my mind. Was he cold-hearted or had something happened in his life to feel such animosity/maliciousness toward the woman? A person once told me, "It's easy to judge when you don't know the other side of the story." What is the other side to this man's story? I agree he was mean to this woman and he should not have been, but why was he this way? Was it lack of heart or was he hiding hurt in his own life?

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Tammy Shibley

March 13, 2012 at 2:34pm | Permalink

Beautiful words from a beautiful heart. There are many people in this world that judge people on their present state. As Christians it's our responsibility to part of the umbrella, whether it's the part that opens up the umbrella or the rod that helps hold it all together. I believe that God opens our eyes to the people in this story to remind us of our ability to stand firm in our faith, not to judge people and the situation they are in but to be there for them and help them to get in out of the rain. This is an amazing story!

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Debe Post

March 13, 2012 at 3:54pm | Permalink

This caused my heart to break, Please continue to write such things that cause our heart to break over God's people.

Debe Post

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Shonda Tompkins

March 13, 2012 at 5:27pm | Permalink

WOW! I do believe you have a gift to write. This has really blessed me and also challenged me to see people as "Souls" and not just people, to remember where God brought me from so I will not be so quick to judge others by merely looking on the outside but to take a much deeper look to the inside! You, my sweet Allison have such SWEET fruit yourself! And this blog is proof of that! You are one (your age) who gives me hope for the upcoming generation!

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Doris

May 10, 2012 at 7:51pm | Permalink

Allison, that was a wonderful expression of God's love. Loved reading it.

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darlene

June 6, 2012 at 8:26am | Permalink

I see you saw this woman through God's eyes. I give thanks to

God (and your parents) that you have the desire to share it. It was written so that the learned, unlearned young and old can understand what you were saying. Bless you and whatever you put your hands to.

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Kamryn Brewer

June 18, 2012 at 10:09pm | Permalink

This is probably one of the most touching things I have heard.And I defenitely agree.No one should be left in the rain.

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